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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 9:31:05 GMT 9.5
Thanks to Spawnwolf and her mentioning denial brought back a shock in me that i never thought I would feel again.. Werewolf denial. It was that one word denial and right now I really feel like crying. i have not felt this in a loong while. I shoved off Werewolf MANY times wanting to be something else entirly. because of the name Werewolves today have, furries, Twilight (not against furries) Teen wolf and yes thats on the rise and popular from MTV. And more and more begging to be Werewolves or claiming to be one. I shoved it off because I did not want to be near with that shit (no offence) I know that does not reflect on real Werewolves but once someone knew I was one, Here comes the PMs asking to be turned or bitten. I started feeling after that what if I was not even a Werewolf but something else? Maybe my powerful legs now really came from wolf and not horse.. Do wolves have that powerful of leg muscles? at least werewolves? if Spawnwolf did not bring me back from this funk even if unknowingly lol I'd still be in a fog.. But what do i do from here? how do i proceed to be the possible real me again? how can i prevent that fog and denial from coming back?
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 9:52:47 GMT 9.5
Wolves as I have learned from different shows, have a lot of stamina. They can wolf run for miles. As for the denial thing, we all have gone through that. You can only know who you are on the inside.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 9:58:11 GMT 9.5
ya I know. I ran away from it because of what was going on today. twits making claims, now Teen wolf is making a Werewolf craze as much as twilight did. So it makes it much worse.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 9:59:21 GMT 9.5
my stepfather as I said in the past did not help eather. When i was not in denial he forced the denial and forced me on a more vampire path. So its much to accept again and letting go of the past is not easy.
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 10:05:09 GMT 9.5
I understand very well. I told my stepdad a bit about shape shifters and he said that it was primitive and that I was not one. I know that I am but I kept it a secret.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 10:06:24 GMT 9.5
so what if we are *primitive* Werewolves are said to be the most *primitive* of them all. sometimes that is not a bad thing.
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 10:11:01 GMT 9.5
Very true. I think that if I ever had proved it to him, he wouldn't accept it.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 10:13:20 GMT 9.5
yup. when i thought I was a vampire at 17. heck my grammy sent me to a shrink because of what i felt was a need for blood... or I thought anyway. And i was VERY well Growly at the time.. And how it was not nice to make these claims.
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 10:23:59 GMT 9.5
What do you mean by Growly?
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 10:25:40 GMT 9.5
meaning I was still learning what i am and my cravings were really getting to me. So don't mind my wording lol.
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 10:34:19 GMT 9.5
Oh, I see. I am still learning about what I am. The only time I heard Growly was from Growlytherian's channel.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 10:43:14 GMT 9.5
lol no no no. I also remember an experience that was recent. i guess my husband knew I am really a Werewolf in denial and just could not tell me. But I wanted to TRY and go vegetarian for ethical reasons. My husband was VERY against it sort of. Not because of the Vegan nazies but because of my health. There is no such thing as a vegetarian Werewolf.. never mind a vegan one. My husband really was talking me out of it. So i decided to support local small farms instead for my meat.I am very glad I listened..
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Post by springshifter on Jun 9, 2017 10:50:43 GMT 9.5
Nice. So you are a werewolf. That's cool.
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Post by Eshtar on Jun 9, 2017 10:54:15 GMT 9.5
ya.. as far as i know. I just need to stay out of the denial fog. And be what i really am.. Not what i want to be.
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